Okay so i’m going to talk to Ashton again but you know i’m going to go on msn and let her talk to me because no i’m never going to start the conversation again. If she wants to speak to me she should start the conversation so yeah. Wow i’m in such a bad mood. I hope i don’t wake up to be honest. Sigh, i’m serious right now. I wouldn’t mind not waking up. I just can’t. Nobody needs me and if i disappeared it just wouldn’t matter and i’m just not essential in anybody’s life. If i wasn’t here, it wouldn’t affect anybody in any way.